Meltdown yesterday. Well, ‘meltdown’ might be an exaggeration, but suffice it to say I was not a happy camper by the end of the day. This cold that seems to hang on and hang on for dear life, the quick and exhausting trip home and back on Monday, trying to make it through 7 hours of rehearsal without coughing too much (impossible) and do my job well, feeling like all I want to do is sleep, trying to take care of Scout, missing Don…all of it came to a head.
Poor Don. He heard it all during the course of a couple of phone calls and wisely let me rant.
I’m tired of being sick. Don’t get me wrong, I know this is really small potatoes compared to what many people have to cope with on a daily basis. It’s just a cold. I get it. But it’s my cold and my life right now away from home and I’m tired and there you go.
Scoutie is tired, too, but she is being such a good girl. Even though taking care of her throughout this makes it harder, I wouldn’t give up her presence here with me for the world. She gets me out of my own head. She makes me smile. She is great company.
More photos from home:
They’re hanging in there.
Leaves everywhere and gardens completely overgrown.
Hyacinth Bean pods.
The winner of a copy of To Dwell in Darkness by Deborah Crombie is Sandi C. Sandi, I’ve sent you an email – send me your mailing address. Congratulations!
Weather report: 100% chance of rain back home. Good! We need it. The rivers need it. My plants need it.
Happy Saturday.
We all have our breaking points and when you aren’t feeling well they just seem worse. Glad you got the rant out and hope today is a better day. Scout would make anyone’s day better!
hugs,
Linda
She is the best, Linda. Thank goodness she’s here!
Claudia, Bless your heart, you have only done what many of us do when sick….we just have to let go at times. I hope you are better today. Some times illness and pain can chip away at us, even though we do our best to be strong. Take care of yourself today. Maybe a nice cup of tea later. Hugs to you , Susie
Tea with honey, Susie…just what the doctor ordered!
Tea with honey sounds like just the ticket. Also good: hot and sour soup. Really clears the sinuses. Maybe you can find a take-out with a vegetarian version. And the more Scoutie-quality time, the better. Big hug.
Long day of rehearsal today, so Scoutie time won’t be til tonight. She’s sleeping now. I have some Miso soup here and I think I’ll have some of that for lunch.
It’s miserable being away from home when you’re sick. I wish I could help you feel better. Here’s to your cold moving on very soon.
Karen
I’ll toast to that!
Being sick, without your Honey, and away from home is truly awful! Hope you start to feel better soon. Extra Scout cuddles, Tea with Honey, Rest when you can!
I’ve had lots of tea with honey today Dottie. I sip it at rehearsal.
Sometimes a meltdown is just what is necessary so we can pick up and move on. That great saying: “I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired” is so true when it seems to linger on way too long! Having your sweet girl with you has to be comforting.
Here is to a better day today with many more ahead!
Thank you, Chris!
I’m so sorry you can’t shake this cold. I’ll just repeat what everyone else has advised…tea with honey…and extra cuddles with Scout. And…I long call with Don I’m sure would help! ;)
I’m having lots of tea and honey!
I’m thrilled to have won a copy of To Dwell in Darkness! Thank you so much for offering a copy, and for introducing me to Deborah Crombie. I’ve sent you my address.
I know just what you mean about being so tired of being sick, and especially when being away from home. Remember that we are all thinking of you with good wishes. I am amazed that you were able to do all that you did back at home while you were sick!
I’m probably paying for it now, Sandi! Congratulations!
I’m sure you are still a bit worn out from that trip home and all the work you did while there..and all of it done while you were still not feeling well..Don is a very wise husband to let you rant and get things off your chest when you need to..having someone to just listen is such a help when you have reach your limit..I was glad to hear in your comment to me that Scoutie had slept with you..That is probably the best thing she could have done for both of you..Hugs
Little Scoutie is such a dear. Don’s lonely today and it was his turn to rant.
Sounds like you’re having a tough time. When life gets to me I cuddle a hound. Is Scout a permitter of great big hugs? Hope so x
A bit. She’ll let me cuddle her by giving her a big hug, but she won’t let Don or me cuddle her for too long.
The daily routine can certainly seem overwhelming when you’re not well.
Why is it that people afford you sympathy when you’re wearing a cast, but are visibly impatient if you say you’re under the weather because of a headache or cold?
I think a similar bug has been making the rounds here. The accompanying cough seems to persist, so do try to rest as much as your schedule allows.
If I didn’t live thousands of kilometres away, I’d offer to come and walk Scout while you rest. She reminds me so much of a border collie I once had – just lovely! :D
She’s a good girl, Barbara. I know what you mean about headaches and colds. They can be debilitating, but people are seldom sympathetic or they expect you to get over it very quickly.
We all have our “meltdown moments” no matter how good we have it. You are definitely doing better with all of this than I would be doing, LOL. Working away from home, long days, dealing with Scout, SICK, missing Don, missing home, blogging every day! Seriously, I would have had my meltdown sooner than you did! Hang in there, and try to rest as much as possible.
Thanks, Debbie. I’m hanging in there.
I hope today was a better day for you Claudia. Doris
Yes, it was, Doris. Thank you.
Sometimes work just ruins life. Other times like wouldn’t be worth living without it. But when your sick, you need to be home. When you are taking care of an old doggie, you need to be home. You are caught between two worlds and aren’t doing well on the fence. We have all been there. Take a deep breath, it will all be better in a day or two. And if it isn’t, find a walk in clinic and demand drugs.
I’m feeling better, still coughing, but less. It’s only been a little over a week. Colds usually last that long.
Hi Claudia,
I think you’re pretty gosh darn amazing! I read your posts and all the things you do, all the plates you have spinning and I know I would go bonkers and take prisoners and crash and burn, in one day! You can manage one helluva lot of stuff, so please take that to heart if you haven’t been. That said, sheesh my friend, you are handling so much stuff (all on your own and sick to boot) and that’s just plain overwhelming and too much.
Thinking of you. Hoping you feel lighter of body and spirit very soon. Sending you virtual hugs & pretend chocolate (I know you’re off sugar) and an ear to listen xoxo
Well, I’ve been sort of bad about sugar lately! Rehearsals are that way – always sweets around. Hard to resist.
We had some much-neededrain last night but only a quarter of an inch. I guess every little bit helps. I think we have two more days of rain during the following week so that will be good. I sure hope you’re feeling better.I hope each day is better. I don’t know how you do it.
Well, I just have to hang in there and take it one day at a time, I guess. Today was better. I think the meltdown helped.
Oh I hope you feel better soon. My oldest daughter and her babies have had that cold and I know its misery. Glad you have Scout to be by your side.
Ranting makes everything feel a bit better too.
Oh, Claudia, you poor kid. I can relate. We are social animals, I guess. I swear it actually feels like colds are worse when you’re alone. Just having someone to talk to, to commisserate with, to make you soup and hot lemonade and tea helps more than one would think. You may not have Don at the moment but you do have Scoutie, the best company anyone could ask for. And no one can expect to shoulder on and smile about it permanently – everyone is entitled to a meltdown now and then. Hope you feel much better very soon. Have you tried 500-1000 mg of vitamin C every hour you’re awake. That always helps me, despite what the doctor says… :>)
Don’t feel bad about the rant. I had one yesterday, too. I hope that your cold decides it is time to leave. Nothing worse than trying to work when you feel so unwell. Your cottage looks very inviting, and I know you will be happy when both you and Don are back home. xo Laura