From about a week ago. Look at that sweet face!
Well, my friends, yesterday was not pretty. I was short tempered, everything was making me angry, Don was making me angry, I felt my blood pressure going up. I finally realized that my tamped down anger and rage over the election results had finally emerged – full blown. It had taken me a while to realize that it wasn’t just ‘being in a bad mood.’ Far from it.
That rage took over the day and I couldn’t fight it off. I finally told Don what I thought was happening. I apologized for being tough on him. And I asked for help. Asking for help is not easy for a perfectionist like me. But I knew Don would understand and wouldn’t judge me. (Heavens, I’m lucky!) He talked me down a bit, and he also realized that I was most likely spending too much time scrolling through the news on Threads. He was right. I was enraged. I am enraged. But I can’t stay in that place because it’s not healthy. I finally read a bit right before dinner. After dinner, as we settled down to watch an old movie, I ditched my chair and the heating pad and sat right next to Don. He put his arm around me and halfway through the movie, I fell asleep for a bit. I felt all of the turbulent emotions of the day leave. And I slept well last night.
Today, I’ll do my best to just be, here at home, with Don. In our safe space.
It’s perfectly fine to let those emotions out, even thought I was in an uncomfortable place all day long. In the end, I felt like I went through a purge, a cleansing, something that was necessary to move forward and resist in a healthy manner.
Advice of a sort: let yourself feel it all. Then you can let it go and be productive.
It’s a little less cold today and the skies are sunny. I might be able to remove the tarp that is currently sheltering my porch plants. I’m hoping for at least another week with them.
Stay safe.
Happy Saturday,
Glad you and Don can comfort each other during tough times. You are such a loving couple. Hope the work with your dollhouse and some quiet times with Don will help you get through this. I’m hoping for Frump to fail as he has done so many times before. I’m hoping for moderate Repubs to step up for once and Democrats to stay strong. All we can do is hope…
I’m hoping he will fail, too. Neither he nor his gang are very smart.
Stay safe, Ellen.
It’s been a hard time for a lot of us. My emotions have been all over the place, and I can get angry at the drop of a hat…as well as cry. I just can’t seem to control my emotions. I can sleep for about five hours at a time, and then I’m awake again and stewing. So, yesterday , I dove into a project with my husband yesterday, that involved a lot of moving of heavy boxes…I thought it would keep my mind occupied so I wouldn’t dwell on our country and that man. And it did work to a point…but now I have a sore back. But…it was good work, and needed to be done.
I’m glad you found peace last night…and I’m very glad you have Don. I know I would be lost without the emotional support of Jim. These men are treasures. Enjoy your day! ;)
I’m sorry you’re having a hard time, Donnamae.
You’re right. These men ARE treasures.
Stay safe.
glad you let some stuff out and got more sleep, and that you and don have each other … so important!
hope you are pleasantly surprised and get at least another week to enjoy the porch plants before winter-y temperatures set in.
i love winter and feel better at cooler temperatures, but there are some things i don’t like about the cold. like finding a sign that someone has been in my car without permission (i park it outside, on my parents’ driveway) … a kernel of dried corn was wedged in between the louvers of a vent on my dashboard. argh! so now my car smells like a weird mix of peppermint rodent spray, dryer sheets and lysol. hope it helps.
basically finished the cross-stitch project for my brother and sister-in-law yesterday (all i need to do is add a heart, my initials and the year). that feels good! and this morning i will pick up live-cut wreaths (ordered through my church) for family members. won’t put the wreaths up until after thanksgiving, but these things remind me that Christmas is coming soon. :)
hope you all have a wonderful, peaceful weekend and stay safe. xo
kathy
Oh, sorry about the car!
Have a lovely weekend, Kathy.