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I’m scared shitless. For our country, for the world, for Ukraine, Gaza, NATO. For our civil rights, for the marginalized, for women, children, babies, immigrants, for the rule of law – for things I can’t even come up with now because I’ve only had 3 hours of sleep. This doesn’t make sense. Less voter turnout than 2020? I don’t think so. I’m far from a conspiracy theorist, but I think Musk, Putin, et. al, interfered with this election. I pray that the DOJ will look into this.

On a personal note: we live on our union pension and social security. We have a hefty mortgage payment. If Social Security and Medicare are cut and unions are eliminated – all of which is laid out in Project 2025 – we will lose everything. Everything. I hadn’t planned on being destitute in my old age.

And so will millions of Americans.

I’m babbling, but that’s what is running through my mind.

That’s all for now.

God help us all.

 

Comments

  2. If it’s any consolation, I’m feeling the same. Absolutely sick and disappointed and frightened. I truly feel like I cannot bear to live through this. And I am so disappointed in my country. Kamala Harris should be proud, she ran a perfect campaign and she was let down.

  3. stunned when i first saw the election results. scared when i think about what could happen next.

    praying.

    sending hugs, too.

    xo
    kathy

  4. I can’t stop crying. Not one minute of sleep last night. My head is throbbing, my heart is broken. Claudia, I feel as if I don’t belong here or anywhere. We’re retired living on a small pension and social security. Our grief is so palpable, the dog was throwing up this morning. She knows. She’s sick, too.
    I can’t. I just can’t.
    Thank you for posting today.

  6. I checked in early because I wondered how you could possibly post today. “I Can’t” is all that is being said in my head, too.

    • I can’t get my head around it. It doesn’t make sense and it certainly doesn’t match up with the turnout we were seeing.

      xo

  9. So now what do we do? I need an answer. Feel anxious, sick……I cant go thru this for four more years.

    Is this who we are America?

    Sending you all a hug and hugging myself.

    Thank you for posting. It takes all my energy just to crawl out of bed.

    Maria

  10. I’m sorry everyone is so upset. But I promise it will be ok. My sister was CONVINCED Obama was the anti-Christ. She was a wreck. I finally said, He is not and it will be fine. It was fine!

    I’m babysitting my 3 and 1 year old Grandsons today with little sleep so pray for me. My new granddaughter arrived on Monday!

  11. I must be hopelessly naive, because I truly thought Harris had a good chance to win. Now what happens to our country and to its citizens?! Everything that has meant so much to us… (Sorry, am blathering– having such a hard time knowing that so many people support such a crazed man…)

  12. I am scared shitless too. Mostly for my kids. We’ll survive somehow…we always do. I need to find my hope again….until then I’ll be in mourning.

  13. I couldn’t sleep last night, but I refused to watch the TV. Got up this morning, saw the news; threw up, then started crying. As a woman of color I am horrified to realize that “my country” is in fact, not really mine.

    I fed my cat and fed and watered my wild birds. Routine helps I hope. I’m going to try to knit (helps with my anxiety) and NOT look at the news. Love you and God bless and keep us.

    • Oh, Melissa. How hard it must be for you. And for everyone. I don’t recognize my country anymore.

      xo

  18. There is a lot more hate and misogyny in this country than any of us backing Harris ever realized. And pure ignorance. That half the country can ignore he’s a felon, rapist, money-grubbing grifter, and a sociopathic narcissist and think, “Yeah, I want THAT back in the White House” boggles the mind.

    We all need to take care of ourselves. Do what we find enjoyment in, tune out the 24 hr news channels, and focus on family. Hopefully some day the next generation will right the wrongs of ours. One of my Millennial sons texted me first thing this morning, “We are the laughingstock of the world.”

    Going to cuddle with my kitty now.

    Take care of yourself, Claudia.
    Kay

    • The uneducated are negatively impacting the rest of us. Ignorant fools.

      Your son is right.

      xo

  19. My thoughts and prayers are with you all today. I haven’t commented in the last few days because I had an awful feeling that this would happen.
    Money talks and the Sidekick whose name shall not be mentioned as they have monitoring devices everywhere, will be the real one in control.

    If they try to cut all the institutions mentioned in 2025, there are enough decent folk to rise up and revolt against injustice.
    As a Brit, I say that you have been successful in the past and you can do it again, refuse to pay your taxes.

    • He’ll invoke the 25th Amendment soon enough.

      Yep. I don’t want to pay taxes to a government I abhor.

      xo

  20. I feel like we are doomed. The world is doomed. Even if we can get out of this (in years, not right away) — it WILL take years. I am beyond words. Today is a day of national grief, for at least half of us in the US. Tomorrow, we start to regroup, think forward, cover our butts. And then — who knows. I hear you.

    • It will take longer than our lifetimes, Jeanie.

      Share any ways that you think we should cover our butts. It would be valuable for everyone.

      xo

  23. I have to believe that God has a plan and I have faith that Trump will not be able to do what he says he will do. I will continue to pray for strength and courage for all of us who know this man is evil. We voted and we have done all that we can do for now.

  24. I’m so sorry …. Love and support from a Canadian. We’re shocked and sickened.

    Hugs
    Nadine

  25. All I could write in my journal is : It’s a dark day for this country. Couldn’t say my, as I feel as Kelli does. How can a people elect a CONVICTED FELON to the highest office???
    Where can we go. I’ve lost all faith in what this country once stood for.
    jane-in-tx

  26. I’m grieving too. America let herself down and the rest of the world too. Not to mention the planet.

    We are still here, together, in solidarity. I’m taking solace from those encouraging souls advising us to band together with kindred spirits. Reach out to your local supporters of democracy. Know you are not alone.

    Hugs to you all.

  29. Hello all. We are currently in Lisbon, Portugal. The people we have talked to here are just as scared and disgusted as we are. We met 2 lovely women from Germany tonight and they are worried for the world. Today when people asked where we were from, we said we weren’t sure anymore, as we do not recognize our wonderful country. Love to all of you that care about the causes Claudia lists. Deep breaths and take care of each other.

  30. I’m late getting this comment out, but I wanted to join the group! Wow, I was quite surprised by the election, and saddened to see he also won the popular vote. I fear that so many who voted for him may regret what they did after seeing what he will actually do. It’s unbelievable that someone who has been indicted and convicted can be the leader of our country. It’s a sad day.

  31. I just listened to Kamala Harris’ concession speech and it was so strong and uplifting. We must continue to speak up and to fight for those that need protection. We must stay involved and pay attention to what we can do each of us in our own small ways…
    I am so sad today but Kamala was a positive voice to hear today.
    Stay safe, Claudia.

  32. Hi Claudia, I am feeling your pain all the way over here in Australia, because what happens in your country affects us as well, my prayers to you both, Christine

  33. Oh, America, what have you done? Trump is scary but Vance, in my opinion, is scarier. I really thought Harris would win. I cried watching her concession speech presented with such grace and poise. I just do not understand how so many people could vote for Trump. Hugs, Elaine

  34. It was a very different election. For the first time in years, we didn’t receive our voting ballots in the mail. Had to go to the local board of elections to get new copies. Never got an adequate explanation from the post office or the election board. I don’t recognize the state that I live in anymore either. I know that it has become a very hard world but this goes beyond the pale.

  35. Hi Claudia,
    I couldn’t bring myself to say anything yesterday. Horrified beyond words. I remember being this appalled when Reagan won… I was in England at the time as a student and everyone was asking me what happened? I didn’t recognize my country then either. I feel much worse now… Reagan didn’t want to be a tyrant… and damage that was done then is still being felt… think deregulation of banking and follow the trajectory. But I am blathering. Don’t know what to do. Have done what I thought I could. Time to step back, hunker down and let it be. I, too am praying they don’t succeed to unravel Social Security… it’s not the government’s money it’s the peoples money they’ve been investing all their working lives! Sigh. At least we are not alone. Thank you for being a meeting place and a sounding board.

  36. If I knew how to give you a hug from the pacific coast, I would do it. We all are very sad. I couldn’t believe the outcome. I hope someone looks into it. But until then, I am saying what moms always say. It will be alright. We will all get through this OK. Love to you and Don. Prayers for everyone.

  37. Being the parent of a son with disabilities, I have burned in my mind that monster, DT, mocking and making fun of a journalist with physical disabilities that wrote something about him he didn’t like. Every time I see that clip I cry with anger at someone so insecure and disgusting. How any parent or person with any sense of decency could think that is ok, so much so that I am going to vote for him as a good example of how I would want my child or grandchild to treat a person with a handicap. I struggle too with finances etc. like many people but no amount of money or money problems could make me or any of my family to stoop so low, as he does every time he opens his mouth to want this monster to be our president.

  38. I am just in shock. What are people thinking. He is a FELON!! Other countries are mourning for us. Where will the USA go? My husband just retired last week. Hoping our retirement will pay our bills now. He is such an evil man! God help our country!

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