I woke up this morning thinking of the twenty million or so people who might lose any health insurance and wondered how anyone with a shred of compassion can crow about that. And I felt despair, which, unfortunately, is still with me.
Apparently, vile comments are not limited to my blog posts about this election. Meredith has received a couple – one specifically – that was so despicable that it prompted her to write a post about those who would presume to attack her. I’m her big sister, so I had to comment. I’m protective of her. That’s my job as big sister, even thought the truth is that she is strong and mighty.
You’d better not mess with my sister. I will not put up with it.
I am enormously proud of her. She is a giving, loving, generous woman who practices love, not hate. So don’t mess with her, commenters, or I will come after you.
Last night’s sunset.
In our yard.
On our walk.
My friend Barbara contacted me yesterday. She has a copy of The Mystery of the Brass Bound Trunk. Since I already have a copy (pictured here) she suggested giving away her copy to the runner-up in the current giveaway. Huzzah! Isn’t that great? So I’ll pick two winners. #2 will get The Mystery of the Brass Bound Trunk, sent to you from Canada by wonderful Barbara.
This giveaway just got more exciting! Remember to leave your comments on yesterday’s post and I’ll pick a winner on Sunday night.
Let me add this: If that man and Paul Ryan and Mitch McConnell do what they want to do, Social Security, Medicare and Medicaid will be in danger. My nephew needs Medicaid for his care. Don and I could not survive without Social Security and Medicare. We simply couldn’t make it. We barely make it with them.
And one more thing: Think about wearing a safety pin. Here’s why, in an article on The Huffington Post. I know I will be wearing one. As will Don.
Remembering Veterans today, including my dad, a decorated veteran of WWII. A never-ending prayer for no more war.
(Trying to be) Happy Friday.
The third picture you posted is so beautiful that it takes my breath away!
Thank you, Debbie! It reminds me of a painting we have. I’ll have to take a photo of the painting and show them both on the blog.
Particularly beautiful photos today; love the autumn colors. Love the light. Needed it!!
Thank you, Vicki!
I agree with Debbie, beautiful!
It was the perfect time of day, perfect light. Thanks, Doris.
The third picture makes me think of a Robert Wood painting.
Be prepared. I am ready to vent.
I am filled with sadness for our country. I heard on our news channel of instances of those who supported the winner were targeted. One was an eleven year old boy in Houston, Tx was beaten by his classmates because he voted for Trump in a mock election. Another instance was in local housing area where raw eggs were thrown at houses and cars because of who they supported. And I think about the protests where peoples’ properties were being destroyed and I wonder how many of those vehicles were Mrs. Clinton’s supporters that were damaged. NO ONE has a right to be mean, disrespectful and destructive because someone has different view. I am tired of the meanness that this election process has brought out. And that person who was mean to your sister, to the people who damaged properties and the boys who beat up on that little boy SHOULD BE ASHAMED! Today we should be giving remembrance to those who served and gave their lives for this country.
I am in complete agreement. Mean spirited behavior has been condoned by that man. And we see it all the time now. And thank you, you reminded me that it’s Veterans Day. I will edit my post to include that.
Just this morning I read about students in a school in the Detroit area – where I grew up – where students were taunting their Latino classmates with “Build a Wall, Build a Wall!”
What has become of us?
I don’t hold either candidate responsible for the bad behavior that is being displayed. The ones that should be held responsible are those who made the choice to be destructive, unkind, mean spirited.
Building a wall is not going to solve the problem. I have lived in El Paso, TX and lived in West Berlin when the wall was still up. One way or the other people are going to find a way across.
I do hold him responsible, but not solely responsible. I also hold the media responsible, and reality tv, but ultimately, the choice is with the people who behave that way.
Lovely photos – one of my favourite things to paint is a winding path through the woods. I read the referenced comment on Meredith’s blog and was disgusted, but consider the source. Your sister is a lady in every sense of the word and the commenter is most assuredly not.
So sorry to read on the late news last night about Canadian Leonard Cohen’s passing. A very, very talented man.
I’m very sad about the loss of Leonard Cohen. He was one of my favorites.
and we lost Leonard Cohen.
so sad.
Monica
I know. I was going to write about that tomorrow. Very, very sad.
I felt sad but was heartened to know that he seemed to really love touring toward the end of his life and appeared content. A lot of living in 82 years, should any of us be so lucky. I’ve always thought his daughter has the most beautiful name…Lorca (she has Leonard’s granddaughter with the uber-talented…one of my most favorite, pure singing voices that can stop me in my tracks when I hear him…Rufus Wainwright [now THAT little girl has some GENES]).
I love and am a huge fan of Rufus Wainwright and I know they are co-parenting that child. How wonderful!
Beautiful scenery in your neck of the woods. Lovely photography, too.
Veterans Day. While reading Susan Branch’s Twitter page from England, I was reminded of an old Veterans Day custom we used to have in this country—selling poppy boutonnieres to raise money for veterans. I sold them when I was very little, probably in the early to mid fifties, but I don’t remember seeing anyone do that since then? Do you?
Gotta go find a great big ol’ safety pin right now.
I remember seeing the poppies many years ago, but no, I haven’t seen them in a long time. Something I miss.
I wish I’d sent you some! We asked the local legion to leave a “poppy box” at our office again this year as almost everyone who comes in makes a donation. I read the “safety pin” article and, between poppies and shiny black safety pins, my lapel is looking quite grand for the Remembrance Day ceremonies this morning.
I remember people standing on street corners selling them. You’d lean out the driver’s window, donate, and wear a poppy the rest of the day.
Oh, I must chime in! The poppy tradition is alive and well in my small SoCalif town. Yesterday we stopped by the post office after an appointment and two veterans were seated at both entrances…one from the Viet Nam war and the other (bless him; he’s getting up there in years; my former neighbor who is the most kind and gentle soul I know) from the Korean war. They were wearing starched-white shirts, had their water bottles as they greeted people in searing heat/sun, had their donation tubs and I bought two red poppies as I always try to do…one’s on my key chain right now…and I put out the flag this morning for my dearest dad and my uncle, both WWII vets, sorely missed. I want to put flowers at their graves today (my uncle’s father-in-law is buried in our family plot, too, and he was a WWII colonel, buried with military honors when I was a teen) but the weather is too hot; I’m staying out of it (I’m a bit wimpy, fighting this cold; don’t feel my best); the heat would kill the flowers anyway. But I may change my mind. I feel a strong need to ‘sit’ with my father today. I was so glad I got to shake my neighbor’s hand yesterday and sincerely thank him for his military service in Korea; I thanked him for my freedom. These guys are so humble; they almost get embarrassed when you try to articulate the gratitude. We have a small but strong VFW organization in my town.
How wonderful! Happy to hear that your town keeps this tradition alive and well, Vicki!
I’m glad that somewhere they are still selling them! Fun memories as a kid.
I am on both SS and Medicare and have heart failure. My husband begins Medicare in January and SS in January 2017 and he too has pre-existing conditions. He has a script that runs $600/month and it is the only one he can take because of an allergy so severe to the others that he would die.
Another of his meds is $400/month. We are not alone in this situation; the fact is that the older a person gets the more medical support they generally require. We have of course, like millions of other folks, been paying into these two programs since for over 50 years!
Two nights ago, an immediate family member of a former colleague of mine was attacked and beaten by a group of Trump thugs after getting off a bus in St Paul, Minnesota. This person is Hmong. Racial epithets were shouted at the victim during the beating. It is interesting on a cosmic/spiritual level that this took place on the anniversary of Kristalnacht. History does in fact repeat itself if the lessons are not learned.
Friends, we are in deep shit.
We sure as hell are. History does repeat itself and lessons are not learned. I’m profoundly sad to hear of that attack. And of others that are happening as well.
Your photos are always good but the Fall walk photo is stunning Claudia. I am appalled at the negative comments to you and Meredith. Not acceptable. I will be wearing a safety pin starting today. I am so sad for our country and anyone who feels threatened by this election. My daughter is one and she is struggling. After just starting to come out of her depression she is now scared and in a bad way again. So many suicides have happened since the election mostly of trans youths. I support a help line and I hope and pray that it will continue to save lives. So much anger and hate towards anyone who is different.
But how great to know there are TWO Nancy Drew books in the giveaway now. I hope you have a good day. I’m struggling but hanging on.
I didn’t know about the suicides. Oh my god, how heartbreaking. They had no hope. Please send my love and support to your daughter who must be terrified. Tell her we are there for her.
I owe you an email, I’ve just been so thrown this week. I just broke down for the first time. I guess I’ve been clinging to anger but now I simply feel despair. Trying to find joy, but I’m not seeing it at the moment.
Sending you a hug.
I may totally disagree with someone but it does not mean I need to be ugly, rude or disrespectful. Nor does it mean I need to try to make them see things my way. We are all allowed to have our own opinions and sometimes keeping them to ourselves is the best course of action.
I really like the saying going around on facebook right now: Be Kind!
I like that saying as well. In fact I ended a post of Facebook with just those words.
Your photos are beautiful….thank you for that! A bright spot amidst the chaos. Yes…I fear we are all in for a rough time ahead. I am sickened by all I am hearing about across the country. I read Meredith’s blog posts, and the comments. What ever happened to civility? I love the safety
pin idea….hope it becomes a national movement! And two books for a giveaway…there are bright spots! Try and enjoy your day…I’m going to try too! ;)
I cried a lot this morning. Now, I have to give myself a chore or two to do to keep me occupied.
Claudia,
I had not heard about the safety pin movement. The photos made me weep. There is so much good in our country, so many safe places to land, so many kind, loving and accepting people. I choose to focus on THEM today.
Thank you for your posts.
I just heard about it yesterday, Brooke.
Thank you for your support.
Thank you, Claudia. Connecting and reading with other good people is helping me get through this frightening time. I am scared like I haven’t been before. Scared for my two daughters and my two granddaughters and anyone else that is in danger now from that man and his cronies.
I blame that man mostly and a biased media runs a close second. He has let people know it’s okay to be violent against anyone that you don’t happen to like. While I understand the protests I can’t condone the violence there either. That man cannot lead us to peace and I will not respect or acknowledge him. He hasn’t earned anything.
I will protest but I would never resort to violence. It’s wrong no matter who you support.
Someone said it on this blog in the comments and I’m paraphrasing. “I think he deserves about as much respect as he gave to Obama.” Yep.
Claudia, I have posted on Meredith’s blog as to the hatred directed her way. I read her blog every day as I do yours. Two kinder, more passionate, strong women than the two of you have not walked the earth. I count you both my heroes, models for all we should aspire to. Fight on! All lot of us have your backs.
Thank you, Tina. I hope you know how much your support means to me. xoxo
Your photos are perfection. Thanks for sharing them with us.
I think that besides you, Meredith would have an ARMY of us after anyone who would insult her!
I hope that someday the only veterans that we have left are people who have joined and served, but never ever had to fight in a war.
Take care. (And HOW COOL about the giveaway!)
She has many people in her life who love and support her. Thanks for your support, Bridget!
You are the best big sister in the world. My safety pin is on!
I’m looking for one right now!
A couple of things:
First, I MUST find a pin. A really BIG pin.
Second, The protesters after the election are really not thinking this through. What do they think they will accomplish? To negate the election? Not going to happen. In Minneapolis The protesters were on the U of M campus, then went onto the freeway. They closed down the freeway! And this morning that man is still in place.
Third: I always love your photos. But today I especially love your walking trail. I like mysterious pathways.
Fourth: My cousin is retired Air Force. He put in 40 years. My brother is a Marine. He put 10 years in before he fell of the top of a helicopter. He would have made it his career if the medical hadn’t discharged him. He flew the helicopter for President Reagan. I didn’t particularly like the man, but it was still an honor to fly for him. I am mighty proud of all of our Vets, but especially my brother.
PIN on Claudia!
I added my blog address . I have trying to get back into it. There are some photos I have taken. If you have the time or inclination please take a look. I would value your opinion.
Well, I believe in protests. As long as they are peaceful. They are a much needed way to speak out when one feels ignored or frightened about injustice. We have to understand that people who are hurting and angry need to feel a part of something bigger than them. Part of a movement. I will protest, should I have the opportunity to. I will also work for change via other methods, as well.
Thoreau spoke of ‘civil disobedience’ and it has an important place in our democracy.
Looking for my safety pin right now, Trudy!
Claudia, I didn’t mean they didn’t have the right to protest. Because, of course they do. I have done my share. But, when it comes to closing down a freeway I draw the line. This one did turn violent at that point. I think protesters of today don’t know what a peaceful protest is.
My protest for this thing that has happened will be mainly silent. Except I will never call him by name or by the office which he now holds.
I understand. And if a protest turns violent, then all that might be accomplished is negated.
I am with you. I will also never use his name and certainly won’t link the title ‘President’ to him in any way, shape, or form.
I don’t wear my poppy but I put it on my secretary in living room in a small Quimper bowl. I actually have two kept them for years. I have my pin on and am off soon for a walk to library. I think I will wear my other poppy and another pin on my jacket. I worry too!
I should have saved a poppy from long ago, Mary!
xo
I am going to be one of the 20 million losing health care, Claudia! I was afraid of this…. I have 2 more years until Medicare… I too am becoming concerned about Social Security and Medicare..I just read an article about Paul Ryan wanting to privatize Medicare… the realities are starting to be horrifying…. I am so sorry you and your sister are being subjected to this nastiness on your blogs…It really speaks to how this is dividing us all… I am praying for better days ahead…..Thanks!
I think I read that same article, Francine and it struck terror in my heart. I’m hoping that Obamacare can be saved. They certainly have no plan at the moment. I am praying almost constantly! xo
My dad was an accountant and always felt that Social Security would never go away; that there’d always be some form of it. I would ask him about it, because my friend Shirley, who is now a retired CPA herself, told me to never count on it…and she was telling me this in the 1970s. “Count on nothing!” she’d say. “Save and invest NOW.” Did young-me listen to her? I could have been more thrifty but I did what I could on about half her salary. And Dad’s opinion had more weight with me.
If something happens to Social Security, my husband and I are screwed. We’d never be able to make our house payment; will have to live in a tent. We have to have the supplemental income or we can’t make it; it’s that simple. What’s the alternative then? Can the government handle a huge contingent of aging people on even more aid? Sit by and watch the homeless population explode/multiply in vast numbers? When, with Social Security, those people could and would otherwise get by/scrape by and do for themselves? And if they alter Medicare? I can’t even go there; I’m desperately waiting for it but I’m not old enough yet. Will it be gone when I reach 65? On a fixed/not-great retirement income, how could we afford some other medical plan? All this stuff is tough enough even on FULL income, in the working years. I’m a cancer survivor with multiple health issues. I worked for as many years (full-time and without a break in employment, from the age of 19) as my health allowed and my husband currently works his ass off. (I’ve resorted into crass language but that can happen when you’re worried and scared. Sorry.)
My parents worked hard all their lives, from the teens (college was impossible, although Dad could take advantage of benefits from the GI Bill later on, after WWII service; he got his degree while Mom supported them); my dad didn’t fully quit work til he was age 80 (had his own business) but, at the time, he was one of the super-elderly who could do that (and needed to do that; needed the earnings) even though he’d cut ‘way back on the work from his 50s due to heart ailments. They never borrowed against their house (the same one they lived in since they were in their early 30s; only house they ever owned, til each died); they never owed anybody; didn’t use credit cards; lived ultra conservatively/frugal.
And I watched it all disappear. Mom died just over 3 years ago. Her healthcare needs were enormous in the last five years of her life, once widowed (she almost made age 90)…even with Medicare and a very-expensive, long-term health care policy (limited; its benefits were running out by the time she died). She had to reverse mortgage once interest income from savings, and the savings themselves, got eaten up. She even cashed in small life insurance policies. When she eventually had no other income but Social Security, it barely covered her basic living expenses…and there was no more money to pay caregivers. In the 90 days prior to her death, I was faced with moving her into a convalescent home (her biggest life fear), the bank would take the house, and the state would have control of her, aided by her Social Security. (With reverse mortgage, if you keep your home maintained, keep up your homeowners’ insurance and pay your property taxes, they can’t take it away from you while you’re living in it, once you’ve exhausted what they paid you, but if you’ve got no income at all…like if there’s no Social Security…you sure can’t pay taxes and insurance so, again, does a DT administration want a flood of indigent citizens on their hands? My very-elderly mom would say: “Just put me out on a iceberg and leave me to die.” [Old but erroneous saying, about native Alaskan tradition.] It’s a helluva way to go out; sick, old, broke, and broken-hearted.)
My husband, voice of reason (although he got it wrong about DT getting elected, despite all his research), says Congress and the Senate will have a voice. A BIG VOICE. (I said, “What about Republican majority, though?”) Expect changes? Probably; likely. Not immediately. Government has borrowed too much and too long from SS and Medicare. But kill it all completely? My guy says, “Won’t happen.” I’m hanging on to his every word.
Breathe. Decompress. I’m trying. It’s been a rough few days.
I agree with all of your fears about Social Security, Medicare and Medicaid. Medicaid made it possible for my mom to cared for for over 3 years in the nursing home. If that hadn’t been there, my father’s life savings would have been wiped out.
I think it would be political suicide for the Republicans to kill SS and Medicare. There would be an uprising like they couldn’t imagine. Because NOW you would be talking about something that impacts EVERYONE, Democrat or Republican. They could kiss their majority goodbye once Midterm elections came up.
Excellent point, Claudia.
Thank you again. Safety pin in place!
You’re welcome!
I started working in the children’s reading program yesterday. I’m feeling better now that I’m doing something positive to help our future, our kids. You live in a beautiful area, Claudia. And you personally add to that beauty and light.
Oh, thank you, Wendy. xoxo
my father fought in WWII and Korea, my dad fought in Korea, today with a man moving into the WH who may create more war and cheat the veterans of wars, they are turning in their graves.
The way in which we should honor our veterans is to show that their sacrifices weren’t in vain. No more war.
While I like the idea behind the safety pin, this is another perspective from the UK – which is where it started after Brexit.
http://www.marieclaire.co.uk/opinion/why-you-should-think-twice-before-wearing-a-safety-pin-today-4726
It’s difficult to know what to do now. While I’m not a huge fan, I found Michael Moore’s Morning After To-Do List very inspiring.
I read the link, and of course no one is saying it is answer enough. But it’s a start. I plan on coupling that with action. As should everyone. So while I respect the author’s position, I have a feeling it’s meant as a ‘think’ piece. And it works as that.
I like Michael Moore’s list, as well, Heather. We need more of that.
This is breaking my heart. The way people are treating each other is my worst nightmare. I had the honor of having been an elementary teacher for over 30 years. One of the biggest challenges and joys was our establishing our classroom community. As a group (with a lot of well chosen children’s literature, songs, and discussions) we always came up with Be Kind as our first rule. Be Respectful and Give Your Best Effort would follow. Funny how we always came up with the same list year after year. Kindergarten and First Graders are a Joy!! Teachers and parents need our support and prayers. As I read your post and your sisters’ I was listening to NPR’s rebroadcast of Leonards Cohen’s Live concert in New York. So I was already feeling emotional. I have my safety pin ready for when I go out of the house. But I would also like to recommend to parents and teachers two authors and their series. (We all love series don’t we). Cynthia Rylant’s Lighthouse Family series is my all time favorite. She just came out with her latest- The Otter. The power of love in these books was especially felt by most marginalized students. Mo Willems Elephant and Piggie books are humorous but full of lessons of empathy. We all need to take care of ourselves right now. We need to be sad and angry and all the rest so that we can heal. Action on our part will follow. Love will prevail!
Fondly, Lani
Thank you so much for the book recommendations Lani. As I don’t have children, I’m not up on children’s authors, so I need to be educated! xo
I love the safety pin idea. Please share if you see it on Facebook so I can post it.
I can’t imagine how Meredith must feel and I am sorry for the message she received.
These people must be mentally ill.
Check my feed, Kay. I shared it yesterday.
I put a big safety pin on my coat lapel last night. I’m still trying to process my grief.
I can only find small ones at the moment, but I’ll find a larger one soon!
We are still grieving and keep hoping we will wake up from this nightmare. Afraid our great country as we have known it will suffer greatly. So, I guess if people want their kids to grow up to be President they need to be taught to be bullies and resort to name calling. NOT! We live in a red state…in fact, the only state that had every county go red. Most of our friends voted for Trump and we have no one but each other to console the other. Because of the electoral college, we feel our votes never ever matter except on state questions. Something has got to be done so that the majority wins. There most certainly would have been many protests had Hillary won but the difference is that they would have carried their guns. Such a scary world we now live in!
Thank goodness you and your husband are at least of like mind about this – I know it’s been hard for those in red states to feel any kind of support. The electoral vote has to be abolished. It is archaic and no longer serves this democracy.
Claudia, we live in the northern Midwest. My husband teaches in grades 8-12, in a small town (pop. 5,000). He came home , yesterday, and told me about all of the harassment going on in school. Kids calling each other horrible names, fistfights, damaging property of others, etc. It has just exploded! I am upset about the harassment of several of my close family, the violence, messing with our social security and medicare, Trump’s close ties with Russia, the building of the wall (it smacks of communism! remember the Berlin Wall everyone?) I could go on – the list is endless. I am starting to feel very traumatized and I know that I’m not the only one. I am trying to be pro-active, first, by signing the change.org petition, to get the electoral judges to change their votes. I did not realize that they could do that. There is still a window of time for them to legally change their vote. I am going to keep looking for ways to help anyone and in any way that I can. I refuse to stand by feeling helpless!
Oh, this is so hard to hear about. But I’ve been hearing about it in other schools as well. And now we know that Russia was in collusion with the Trump campaign. It’s a fact.
I signed that same petition, Susan. Good for you! We can’t stand by, we have to fight. xo
I would love the honest opinion of someone I admire and respect (that’s you ):)
Am I crazy holding out any hope that the electoral vote could change things. Apparently there are petitions and gatherings to promote this happening.
what do you honestly think
SueZK
I signed a few petitions about that. I have the smallest smidgeon of hope, but, unless something happens with Trump between now and December 19th, I don’t hold out much hope. We can still hope, of course, but I don’t think that many Electors would change their votes.
This is like a death, isn’t it, or some other catastrophic event? You wake up every morning and it hits you all over again. Today I overheard a young man talking to a friend at an estate sale. He said we have to start finding the good and the beautiful wherever we can, and then quoted Leonard Cohen’s That’s How The Light Gets In. I wanted to hug him.
Yes. Everything is okay for that first second or two and then you remember that everything has changed.
Love that young man.
The photo of your walking trail is breathtaking!!! I am afraid I would never get a thing done indoors in the fall…I would use every excuse to be on that trail! Just lovely—-
I happened to turn back and saw the light on those trees and had to take a photo! Thanks Jeannine.
I keep a Word document open all the time with quotes that help me get through tough days. When you mentioned your Dad, I remembered that a quote of his is on my list…you posted it at least a couple years ago.
[i]When things get difficult, my father (a WWII, Battle of the Bulge ~ at the age of 19 ~ Vet) always says, “At least nobody’s shooting at us.” [/i]
Perfect! That helps put things in perspective, Moggie!
Been deliberately avoiding my laptop today – for the sake of my own sanity [seriously] – but did want to leave a quick note. LOVE the safety pin idea. I might have to buy some safety pins [haven’t seen any around here in quite a while] but I’m doing it. I’m going to be pretend I’m a French farmer’s wife during WWII, active in the Resistance, and harboring a whole Jewish family in the attic of our barn in the Loire Valley countryside.
Also saw a great quote on Twitter yesterday that I wanted to share:
“They tried to bury us. But they didn’t know – we were Seeds…”
Dontcha just love that? ❤️
Don’t think I haven’t thought of that same scenario!
I saw that quote the other day, and I really do love it. Thanks, Janet.
Unbelievable that anyone could be so ugly to Meredith; I had read her post and comments but that was before that unforgivable comment. Over the pst few years I did check on her blog regularly to see if there was a new post since she didn’t post every day. Much respect and admiration for her. Remember when there was a problem with the foster parents Buddy had and she stepped right in as his advocate. She truly is the best of us humans and am angry anyone could be nasty to her. Could not believe that ugly arrogant comment. The Trump poison continues. Dianne
PS lovely pictures that are wonderfully calming
She is an extraordinarily giving caregiver for so many children in need, as well as her own children. That someone could say such an appalling thing to her makes me angry. Now people have official permission to speak that way, and it’s so disheartening.
Thank you, Dianne.
I have been reading your blog daily for years, have only commented a couple times. I will not be coming here anymore. I have had enough of your negative political talk. It is your blog, you can write whatever you choose. I can choose to read other blogs instead.
Yes, I am one of those “deplorables” who voted for Trump. I am also a retired veteran who sacrificed much for this country. Like most military members, I could not vote for Hillary.
I have enjoyed stopping by here and following your life. I wish you and Don all the best.
Goodbye.
You are welcome to move on. I didn’t really need to know that you’ve decided to move on. You can just do it, you know.
But I wish you the best, too, Dyanna.